I don't regret a single second of college, at all...

Wow, I haven't blogged in awhile. Technically I shouldn't be blogging as my accounts paper is next week. But what the heck, I have been relaxing my butt off reading a Nicholas Sparks book, I think my brain needed the rest. I just have to work my butt off, because after the devastating hardness of the maths (you could have done all the past year papers and it still wouldn't had prepared you for it), I definitely have to Ace that accounts paper. Accounts logics and calculations tends to be absorbed by my brain quicker as well.

But just when I started getting a little bit fond of doing maths, for the first time all year, I guess I am happy I no longer have to do it ever in my life. Of course I can go hours at a time studying and revising for maths, but the longest for law, 20 minutes top or else I'll just be sleeping on top of my desk. One time I got so tired studying my legal studies, that the chewing gum from my mouth actually went out of my mouth and yes, it took a metal ruler to remove out the memory. And until today, there are some bits of stickiness.

But anyway, I say this all the time, but college has been a blast. I could have done my pre-U, year 12 in my old school, but you know what, I'm glad I didn't. Granted, the reason I wanted to leave was because I wanted to feel independent, the college life. I thought in my heart that if I were to have lunch with the kindergarten kids during lunch breaks, I would never have felt the college life I desperately wanted to feel. Plus I didn't have to wear school uniforms anymore.

College life here I come.

This was how I felt about a year ago.

Convincing my mum to send me to the Subang campus is another story. Its hard for me to say, I remember going to the Hartamas campus, and really disliking it. I didn't hate it, I just disliked it. True the Taylors' Hartamas Campus was just 15 minutes away from my home and tha Taylors Subang was 40 minutes on a good day with not much traffic, but I wanted to go to Subang. I remember literally begging my mum and she gave in, finally, and I had the college life I wanted.

She never understood why, but she later understood that I was old school in that sense, the college for me actually had to feel like a college, not one with escalators and well so totally technologically advanced. Technology is good, but the Taylors Subang had enough technology thank you so much.

But to those of you who went to the Taylors Hartamas, thats cool too, everyone has different preferences, this is just my preference.

Also I met lots of good and cool people in college. One of my good friends is a great girl I thought I'll never really get along with, her name is Harmin, its certainly been so fun hanging out with her, and sitting with her at Asia Cafe talking about boyfriends, college and everything else under the sun.

This year, 2009 was a really great year. It went better than I ever expected. I got even closer to my best friend Sarah Jaafar who just went to the UK to pursue a law degree, and made some new friends as well. Yes, Lee Zheng Yi, I love you too. :)

My classmates are one of the most wonderful bunch I have ever met. The thing is I never really felt at home with my classmates before. This is due to a few things.

In primary and secondary schools, I had so low self-esteem and low confidence, that it was inevitable I wouldn't be having a great time. Because how was I going to get friends who loved me when I didn't love myself?

Another because I followed my mum's advice in my later high school years.

She told me to not really expose myself for who I was for the first two or three months, so I was very quiet and shy and I was suppose to *suss* people for their true personalities. Granted this backfired. Because you should always be yourself. And I just happened to be those people who liked talking, saying whats on my mind, making jokes and laughing with people. You should never hide yourself. And also, by the time my true self came out, some people were like where did the old Ruzanna go? It was funny because I was just showing who I was to the world for the very first time. I guess the best thing I should have done was be myself since day one, but I didn't, I learned this the hard way.

So this year for college, I was adamant to disregard my mum's advice, though I do love her a lot. Let me just tell you, the downside of being yourself from the very beginning is that some people won't like it, and the bitches you met in high school? Sorry to break your sweet little heart, but you meet even meaner bitches in college. But this helps suss out your real friends real quick, by being yourself I mean. I cried as much as I cried this year. It was one of the toughest years ever, but it was also extremely wonderful.

The last day of college, before exams started, was beautiful and happy and a little heart-wrenching as well. It was hard to say good bye. I love each and every classmate of mine. They were all very different and unique.

I remember on the first week of school, firstly I thought my economics teacher was scary and so strict and scolds alot, and would make me not love economics anymore. But if anything, now she's one of my favourite teachers ever, and since I didn't even see her the last day in college, thank god I saw her later when I went back to college for consultation. I hugged her, told her she's such a great teacher, and that she's so nice and everything, she was shocked, but she hugged me back. My friend Zheng Yi didn't even know what to say.

I thought I wouldn't get along with some people in my class the first time. But thats the thing about first impressions. Its bad, its bad, its bad. The people I thought I'll never get along with, I got along with them really, really well.

But anyway, I'll stop talking, I'm gonna miss my classmates lots and lots. :(

Me, Jill, Kelly, and Joanne

These are some great gals here :)
Jillian is not only good to gossip to,
she's mightly intelligent and
she'll say what she wants, I do really love her blog :)
Kelly was really great being a prosecutor in
moot court,
and Joanne, I admire her for her great fashion sense
and being one of the few people who really
doesn't care what other people thinks. You keep strutting your stuff girl :)

Ern Lyn, Zheng Yi, me and Wei Fen.

Ern Lyn has always been really nice to me,
and I have always known she's got a really kind heart,
and Zheng Yi, I love her so much she's definitely
one friend I can come on.
Wei Fen, she's always been nice to me too,
and she's very helpful every time I ask her college related
questions, I like helpful people :)


Girls of L1, why am I in the corner hugging a girl? Hmmm...
lol, I guess you will never know...

Me, Jill, and Ern Lyn

Mrs Lim, the maths teacher who never hesitated
to stay back after class and give consultation
and try to teach me maths. She's been
extremely patient, she is one great woman :)
Mr. David, my legal studies teacher. Even though
its been his first year teaching, he has been
an extremely dedicated teacher, and for that,
I'll always respect him.


Shireen, one of the most fun loving gals in class.
She is hot, but she's different because
she's so nice and funny, and she's
got one hell of a great personality. :)
Ju Ee and me. I'm glad that I had the honour of
meeting a girl like Ju Ee, whenever I need advice
I go to her, and she gives me some great advice,
and makes me feel stronger. I was so surprised to
see how incredibly open minded she is, she is
a great person to talk to, most definitely.

Michelle and me. It was such a pleasure knowing
Michelle, one great gal I can gossip with.
Helpful, she is definitely destined for very great things :)


Me and Zheng Yi, my love. One of the reasons I think,
why I enjoyed college so much, was because
I got to spend it with Zheng Yi, who was
from my old school. I remember being so incredibly
happy that she was in the same class as me!
We was there with me through the ups and downs,
and I trust her, I only wish she gets all the love
and happy things she definitely deserves :)
Me and Andrew. This guy is really such
a gentlemen, I can't even express my gratitude and
appreciation for him, because he never ever
hesitated to even teach me maths.
This guy is gonna a great life, and be
extremely successful, I just know it in my bones.
Ms. Julianne, the best ESL teacher ever!!!! She's so cool,
and she let us watch Russell Peters in class!
She has worked hard to be a good teacher and it
definitely paid off. She is not just a great teacher,
she is also a role model. I admire as well as respect her.
When I'm successful in my career I hope to see her again,
and tell her, how I'm so thankful that I got to be her student :)


Me and Jia Wei. This guy is really funny and pretty nice too,
it was certainly nice to have the pleasure to know him.
Horng Chern and me. This guy can sing, play the guitar,
so he's definitely talented. He's mighty nice too,
he's a decent guy :)Me, Hon Mee, and Harmin.
I love Hon Mee cos she's so funny,
and extremely fun loving. She's cool :)

I didn't really manage to take a picture of me and Harmin that day, so here's an old favourite picture of me and Harmin.

This is definitely quite emotional talking about me and Harmin.
She was there for me through all the heart aches, and though
I have never told her, I do pretty much consider her
one of my really close friends, my best friend even.
I love her too death, she understands and gets me.
She's a good listener, she's seen my tears, knows my laugh,
and knows me in and out. She's one of a kind,
I plan on being great friends with her for a long time, I
love you girl :)

L1 of 2009, its been one hell of a
rollercoaster ride!

And of course not only was I extremely fortunate to meet such great class mates, but there is also the incredible boyfriend. I was talking to my best friend just an hour ago, and she was asking me how was me and my guy doing, and I was like amazing. And she's like, "How long have you guys been together?" I replied, "Nine months". She was shocked, because she's known me well, I have never been able to be with a guy more than two months maybe. But thats because my boyfriend's different. He's been my rock, even though college like was stressful, it seemed like for a lot of my friends, college seemed to be the year where your love life has a new beginning.

So those of you starting college next year. Even if you don't meet a guy, thats okay, I'm a firm believer that you don't need a guy to be happy, but college life is when you have so much independence and a little bit more of freedom, and also, it can be when you meet the guy of your dreams :)

Thats about it, till next time.
Ruzzie.